Finding your feet .... ( in a creative kind of way)

Finding your feet. It's not easy. Sometimes it takes time. sometimes it doesn't happen as quickly as you would like it too, and sometimes there's a whole lot of 'stuff' that you have to wade through before you finally hit the start button. But one thing is for certain, you should start.

O.k, before I go any further I would like to say that I am really only speaking for myself, but in writing this blog I hope to talk about how I have navigated my creative career so far and what I still have to learn. I also hope that maybe some of you may even relate to some of the topics I want to talk about.
But first, lets get back to finding our feet. In our busy world where everyone seems so clued up and on the ball, it might be difficult to be the one who hasn't got the foggiest idea of what they're doing. This was me big -time! Especially in the last four years.  If ever anyone asked me what I was doing it would change on a regular basis,but  the one thing I was doing REALLY well, was procrastinating ... if ever there was some kind of qualification to be had in it,  I would definitely have achieved a first class Honours!! I had what you might say an 'overflowing range' of creative ideas bumping around  my head on a daily basis and as wonderful as it might sound, it was a complete
Having just written a book about Jewellery for kids
I thought I should just carry on in this way, so I tried a few ideas for follow on books,which didn't go anywhere. Then I thought about running my own classes, this I presumed was a natural progression, but lack of interest locally( or maybe MY lack of interest) put the stoppers on that. 
While writing some articles for a well known jewellery magazine I honed in on an idea to make bridal Jewellery and spent many long hours perfecting them, only to have them sit in a box never to see the light of day. I started about three different blogs, started writing an illustrating two books and actually completed a young adult novel ( well, completed 70,000 words, but never re-wrote) entered a short story competition,and Oh I forgot! Designed a multitude of surface pattern designs.
Phew!! Even as I am writing this I can see a pattern here... starting was never really a problem for me, at all, it's just that I got bored and nothing really stuck.
So I suppose what I mean is, I had to wade through a mountain of stuff before I EVEN started to paint. I think I secretly always wanted to but never really plucked up enough courage to have a go, even with all the art training that I'd had it still didn't stop those niggling doubts that I wouldn't be good enough at it. All the other things seemed to come more easily, painting was going to be a little harder for me, that's why I tried everything to avoid it! as silly as it sounds.
 But somehow and from somewhere I got the courage to have a go. At the very beginning I was tremendously impatient, only focusing on the end product, but slowly as time has gone by, and by practicing every day I have finally reached a point where I am beginning to be happy with my work. The truth  is I  don't think you are ever 100 percent convinced that the work you do is the best, otherwise you would never keep searching and pushing yourself, but I can honestly say that that is the greatest challenge and brings the greatest joy.
I'm still very much at the beginning of the painting journey and it definitely isn't easy, but it is so uplifting and rewarding and has so many facets to it.
So thank you for reading. Would love to hear your comments.

 Have you ever struggled to start a creative career? let me know your thoughts.